Being impulsive led me to cleaning my entire room today, I felt productive for once, since my mother woke me up early today, I was forced to do things around the house. I took a nap before meeting with my lovely cell group today at church.
As much as I would like to be alone for a while, there is always something about these people that makes me enjoy the company and fellowship with fellow believers. I get to see God work on the lives of imperfect people, who I’m blessed to have a sisterly relationship with.
Sometimes I take a step back appreciate these people who love me unconditionally. I met most of them back when I was still in high school (I love our cellgroup leader) also one of my bestfriends, Cara, who was also nice enough to drop me off of our house since our group ended at 10 in the evening today. lol. #NOREGRETS.
There are times where I ask what God is ever capable in doing in my life, I feel as though nothing is happening and yet I know that there’s thousands of things He is doing right now that I’m unaware of, being the finite being that I am.
Earlier today we discussed about things we’re grateful for this week. It was difficult for me to think of what I am personally thankful for, and that reminded me of how ungrateful I can be sometimes. I was able to come up with something nonetheless. But I have no intention of sharing it right now hahah.
Another thing is, I learned something that I can actually pray for, something I’m deeply bothered and concerned about. I don’t know what the Lord had planned about this, if (whatever it is that i refuse to specify) does not glorify Him in anyway, then I humbly surrender, I do not want history to repeat it self, so I’m neutral with whatever He wants to do, whether he decides to break or mend whatever’s keeping me attached to it.
If it is bound to happen then it must, if it doesn’t then. I don’t know, really.
I don’t have power over this situation at the moment.